Thursday, November 18, 2010

The Night Before The New Dawn - by Ellen Hoffmann 11-17-10

The Night Before The New Dawn

Sitting alone, quiet and still
I feel the warm water fall from my eyes.
I hear the tears slap the paper with a quick pop
and I wipe my cheek gently trying to comfort my own self.
I deserve to cry from time to time.
As I release my sadness and self pity, my heart can now prepare to fill itself with all of the love that surrounds me.
I am prepared for battle, only allowing the positive to enter my door to my home, to my heart, and to my life.
It is the night before the new dawn, waiting anxiously to have my prayers answered.
I will fight as I have been taught to fight in the past, always with Faith, Honor, Dignity, Humility and Trust.
My GOD will take my hand and we will walk together on this night into the new dawn to face the new day that follows it.
Never looking back, only ahead, knowing that my healing is what we will fight for.
Trusting that my healing is only weeks away from tonight -
The Night Before The New Dawn.



Written on the night before chemo treatment 1. First poem written by me in over 15 years. 
I hope you have enjoyed it.
El 

8 comments:

  1. Ellen, I know Wayne or your Mom cannot be with you during chemo but the staff cannot stop the healing angels from sitting at your side. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Sharon

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  2. You are an inspiration, your words are powerful!you are not alone, God is holding your hand every step of the way. Squeeze his hand today each and everytime you need to! xoxoxoxo! Lisa

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  3. Philippians 4:13 (King James Version)

    I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.


    Proverbs 3:5-6 (King James Version)

    Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.

    In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.

    Ellen,

    you and your family are in our thoughts and prayers, Remain strong (AS ALWAYS) and trust your faith. As one can see by the strong following you have, know and trust that you are loved and cared for.....GOOD LUCK AND MAY GOD BLESS YOU!!!

    P.S. YOU'RE SMOKING HOT WITH LONG HAIR ;)

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  4. Ellen,

    We are beside you in spirit supporting you through every cry, every laugh, every moment of fear as well as joy. I know you have been flooded with calls and crowded with support and God bless to all who want to show you how much you are truly and deeply loved. Your beautiful husband and children have such a strong mentor to look up to. You already have the faith, honor, and dignity you so deserve. Hang in there...you are on your way to being healed.
    We love you whole heartedly. Sabrina and Mark

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  5. Hey Ellen,

    I absolutely love your poem!! I too, haven't written a poem in years! Well done. I'm so happy to hear of the tremendous support team you have. That is so wonderful. It gave me chills when I read about your friends offering to shave their heads..WOW, that's awesome! That is whatcha call TRUE friends sista!! You are such a beautiful person inside and out, and so strong!! Just like your mamma!!! LOL You just keep up that positive attitude and fight this with all your might!

    It saddens me to hear that you cannot have anyone with you during your treatments. But like you said there are many people with you in their hearts and God is holding your hand! Love ya my baby!! Your cousin, Sherri

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  6. YOUR POEM IS ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL, JUST AS YOU ARE. I PRAY FOR GOD TO EMBRACE YOU AND NEVER LET GO AS I KNOW HE WILL.ELLEN, STAY STRONG AND YOU WILL BEAT THIS AND YOU WILL NOT BE IN ANY PAIN FOR GOD IS WITH YOU, I AM SURE OF IT.I LOVE YOU MY FREIND AND I WILL ALWAYS KEEP YOU IN MY PRAYERS...STEPHANIE KAIN CANEDO

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  7. Your poem is beautiful.It touched my heart and spirit.God has blessed you with such a beautiful family and i pray that God lays a blanket of peace over your family.Today i went back years while i was in prayer fo seeing your face in front of SJM.God is your strenght and as i can see many angels he has sent to lift you up.(Father,it is written in Psalms 107:20 that you will send your word to heal me,and your word will not return void,and that you will rescue me from the grave)love always Cindy

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  8. THIS POEM IS BEAUTIFUL.
    ALL YOUR TRUE FEELINGS, AND THE FEELINGS OF MANY OF SICK PEOPLE.
    LOVE IT
    MON

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